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Few months ago, a dear soul sister asked me a question: “WHAT KEEPS MY INNER SPARKS GOING even when at times it really dims out?”
My immediate response was “I do not know haha..” I have felt unmotivated, tired and wanting to throw in the towel many times and very often. Each time I lost my momentum, I felt lost and lousy but I always managed to pick up the pieces and START ALL OVER again. ‘WHAT'S KEEPING MY INNER SPARKS GOING?’ As I journal and reflect, I am guessing it is a PROMISE and COMMITMENT: ❤️ To MYSELF - 👧🏻It is my sole responsibility to love and take good care of myself before I can do the same for others. 🙇♀️It is my way of loving those who love me. They want me to be joyful, happy and healthy too. 🧚🏻It is my inspiration to continue to be the beautiful version of myself now and yet to come. 🌎 To this EARTH - 🧘🏻♂️To fulfill my humble role as a HUMAN BEING. 🌸To love, honor and care for Mother Earth. 🌷To show kindness, add value and impact someone’s life as little and as much as I can. ☀️To SPIRIT 🌳To be a vessel of love, wisdom and peace. 🪷To be a vessel for them to work through me to guide others. 🪻To trust Spirit and my ancestors that they are always with me and watching over me. Few days ago, I happened to read a message by Dr. Jaiya John, from his book - We Birth Freedom at Dawn, and it gave me the “Aha”! ‘The great project of your life is to become a safe space for yourself and all living things. To be imperfect and flawed, to regress and forget, to wander and be lost, to grow weary or unwell, to be abandoned or betrayed, to flush with despair or be paralyzed with terror, and yet wake again each day and resume this project. For each day you are given is a newborn miracle that sings: You still have time to become a living sanctuary. And wouldn't that be your greatest creation of all.’ Happy Winter Solstice to all! To the one reading this, may it inspire you to also honor your inner sparks and to keep it glowing! If you can share, I am happy to know WHAT KEEPS YOUR INNER SPARKS GOING? At the balcony, gazing at the candle, I feel the cool breeze brushing softly on my skin. The gentle whisper of the birds welcomes the breaking of the dawn. The aroma of the incense pervades the air. As I take a sip of my cacao, my heart is immersed in a sense of peace and gratitude. I am so nourished.
‘Thank you Spirit, I am so grateful to be here.’ This year has been challenging for many, including myself. Guess the Year of Dragon is meant to awaken our power and courage. One of my greatest wins this year is a paradigm shift from: 🤦🏻♀️‘Things happen TO ME’ to 😌‘Things happen FOR ME’, to 😎’THEY ARE WITH ME.’ When we perceive ‘Things happen TO ME’, we can easily fall into victimhood and feel disempowered. When we shift to ’Things happen FOR ME’, we understand that every situation is here to help us learn, heal and grow. One of my teachers had said it in a very candid way - To turn the SHIT Into GOLD. However, we can feel we are taking on the battles alone especially when it is a very challenging and tricky situation. This is why ‘They are WITH ME’ is so important. “They” can be our family, loved ones, friends, teachers, mentors or coaches. It can be our faith, the invisible force, guidance and protection. THEY ARE WITH ME is like turning on a generator when we are “out of power”. This could eventually release the myth that I AM ALONE. Very soon, 2024 will become history. I want to take this opportunity to thank all those who are with me. THEY are my teachers, coaches, mentors, beautiful friends, spiritual communities, my ancestors and spiritual guides. If you are feeling a little deflated or defeated, let me remind you: “If you can make it so far, you are simply amazing!” Give yourself a hug and know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Feel free to drop me an email at [email protected] if you need some form of support. Much love Do you
Imagine a HUGE POT filled with water to the rim? Water is your passion. As time passes, you find holes in the pot and the water starts leaking. You are a very resourceful and dedicated person, so you keep filling up the water. BUT you forget to patch the holes! You keep filling up, the water continues to seep out from the holes. What a strenuous effort! Does this ring a bell to you? Do you do a lot of self reflection, inner or spiritual work to FILL yourself up? But forgotten to take practical and reasonable steps to SAY NO to what DRAIN you? If yes, it is time to take good care of YOUR POT OF PASSION! If you are looking for a coach and a healer to guide and hold you accountable, drop me an email at [email protected] In the meantime, give yourself a pat too! You have been resilient and dedicated enough such that the pot of passion did not dry up! Much love.. On the eve of the second last new moon of 2024, I took a stroll at the botanical garden after a healing session with a beautiful soul.
As I rock the swing to motion. The soft breeze, the scent of the green, the clean air after the blessing of rain brought me a sense of tranquility. With the sun retiring behind the horizon, I reflect on my day and the session that I had with my client. I am grateful that the session helped to reconstruct some of the beliefs and brought some relief to the physical discomfort. The combination of Intention tapping and reiki works wonders. We can NEVER HEAL FROM BEING HUMAN. We will have our highs and lows, moments when we feel so proud of ourselves and there will also be times when we feel we could have done better. Unless we are on drugs, we can never be “high” all the time. Flowers bloom and wither too. This is the Law of Nature. Most will not want the lows, but maybe that’s what makes all of us precious. It is as if each of us is dancing with a partner - LIFE. We need to be fully present to be able to move with the rhythm and flow. Embracing imperfection is a MUST if you want passion and expression, communication and connection throughout the dance. Do not be too hard and harsh on ourselves, LIFE IS NOT A BATTLE TO WIN but A DANCE TO BE FULLY PRESENT. I went to the post office this afternoon to collect my new IC. I was surprised to see a long q, I could sense the restlessness and frustrating energies around. There was some disruption to the system and they could only accept cash. The system to enrol our iris image was also unstable and the staff had to keep rebooting the system.
I sensed my irritation and also my mental chattering: “Sigh, why do I come today, I should have rested at home. I came at the wrong time.“ I began tapping my fingers, noticing my emotions and thoughts. I started to calm down and felt at peace. A gentleman who was there to collect his passport commented:”What’s the point of making an appointment when I have to wait so long?” I was standing beside him and explained that the system shut down a few times and the staff have been rebooting. He felt better after understanding the situation. All the staff looked really stressed but they were very professional at the same time. I smiled at the staff at the counter and she nodded her head with appreciation. I am so glad that I developed the habit to tap regularly and as such the tapping came naturally when I began feeling irritated. It not only calms me but also shifts my perspective. Guess what? I was not unlucky to be in an “unsatisfactory” situation, I was there for a reason - to provide some form of support to the people around me. The next time you are in an unsatisfactory situation and think you are unlucky, maybe you are there to serve a good purpose! What are some of your greatest qualities or archetypes that serve you the best, especially in times of challenges and your darkest moments?
October has been challenging in many ways and yet in those moments, I manage to find pockets of peace and joy because of these qualities in me. First, I love blessing myself - my past, present and future self. I will do simple rituals and pray for myself. Second, I love nourishing myself. I will make cacao, cook nutritious meals for myself, get massages and most importantly allow me-time. Third, I have a powerful magical child archetype who creates playfulness and joyfulness in simple ways. Last, my regular morning routine of breathwork, reiki and intention tapping helps me to regulate my emotions and energy level. This post is to remind you that YOU HAVE QUALITIES AND ARCHETYPES WITHIN YOU TO SUPPORT YOU. TRUST YOURSELF. Much love to you. You see me
You witness it all You know it all Who I am Who I will become. You called upon me In every major transition To receive your blessings To witness your magnificent To savour your nectar To hear your songs To feel your heartbeat. You reminded me Of my strength Of my uniqueness Of my wisdom Of my compassion Of my soul destiny. Thank you Spirit of the mountain Thank you Jade Dragon Snow mountain. Thank you Mother Earth Thank you Great Spirit. I am humbled I am grateful And will always be. With love & gratitude My beloved,
Do not forget me I have taught you resilience and strength I have taught you self care and compassion I have taught you the reality and truth. Do not forget me Even though you dislike me And choose not to remember me. Do not forget me You will not arrive at where you are without me. I do not need you to put me on the pedestal I do not need you to worship me I only need you to remember me. I am your teacher I am your motive I am your messenger I am working for you I am an important substance in your sacred medicine. If you forget me You will forget why you are here You will forget your motive and purpose You will forget why you are doing what you do. Do not forget me. With all my love, Your Sacred Ache I was at Soul Soup Sunday circle last weekend. It was facilitated by Diana and a beautiful couple, Dawn and Peter. It made me contemplate and through the lenses of others, gained some new insights about “Enough”.
“ENOUGH” came strongly to me around 2020. I was a final year inner works student back then. While most of my fellow classmates have decided to progress further, I kept hearing “IT IS ENOUGH, IT IS ENOUGH!” It was as if my guides were speaking to me through a loudspeaker! I started my inner works in 2015 and have spent close to or more than 200 hours of sessions with my healers and psychotherapist, I had obviously brought myself into a deep dive. I was not feeling safe with myself, my shadows and gifts. I eventually chose to leave the school in 2020. “IT IS ENOUGH” because I have reached a “sweet spot” within myself. It is enough for me to live and explore life with deeper trust, self-love, self-care. It is enough for me to come back to myself. It is enough for me to have a deeper trust and connection with myself and Divine. Most importantly, I decided to have mercy on myself, there is no need to keep “diving”. A professional diver needs to come out of the deep sea to rest and take a breather too. I want to connect the dots between my inner and external world so that I can bring forth my learning and gifts. I am still learning and exploring but it is now coming from a place of curiosity and wonder. I am also relinquishing the need to constantly prove or fix myself. Where is your “Sweet Spot” that you feel is enough? Be mindful that each of us is different so do not use others as a gauge. If you release all the unreasonable expectations, demands and beliefs, you may have already arrived at your “sweet spot”. Remember, you do not need to arrive at your “sweet spot” to live and enjoy life! You can still have fun, love yourself and love life while working towards your “sweet spot”. Much love When I first started my spiritual practices through Buddhism and meditation, I met teachers who were manipulative. I played a part in this “game” too. The lower aspect of “Good Student” archetype and “The Pleaser” were there to make this game work.
One of them was a nun that I followed for eight years. I was not aware that I was giving my power away and almost took a path that will be so inauthentic to me. When I started to slowly take back my power and decide things on my own, there were disregards, passive threats and scare being directed to me by this teacher. There was a power tug of wall in this student and teacher relationship. I left eventually. I remembered feeling confused, disheartened and at the same time angry. I was more angry with myself than towards her. It took me a few years to understand what the relationship was teaching me and to reconcile within myself. “Do not give my power away. Do not idolise.” This was the “gift” from our relationship, and it was a precious gift. I still love my teachers, respect and care for them, but I do not idolise them nor do I give them any power to decide things for me. I believe many of us here would have seen a healer, psychic, tarot card readers or feng shui masters in our journey. I have honestly seen many and have met really good, and compassionate healers and readers. They have helped me a lot and I am always grateful to them. However, there are also some “unqualified” ones. Their reading may or may not be accurate or spot one but their attitude and egoistic behaviour is something to be mindful of. At times they can be a bit dramatic, and you wonder if there is anything wrong with you. You may feel judged and humiliated. They can be so closed hearted and you do not feel a moment of compassion and empathy from them. They can also insist that you listen to what is given and not what you want to hear. They feel that they “know it all.” If you ever met some readers that “embodies” such traits and whatever they said are so untrue and does not align with you, STAY CALM and tell them: “I DISAGREE and THEY ARE NOT MINE”. DO NOT GIVE YOUR POWER AWAY and do not buy into their stories. I am writing this also to remind myself as I continue to train myself as a coach, psychic and a healer that I must not take the power away from my clients too. It is important to learn how to relay the correct messages to our clients because they have an impact on our clients. Words like intention and motive are a world of difference. Why do we want to embark on this journey as a psychic, healer or coach? Is it to feel superior, to show off our skills to others? Or is it that we have the open heartedness and compassion to SERVE others? Do not forget our pure intention when we started. Being a psychic, healer or coach does not make us a better person. It is crucial that we continue to work on ourselves, do our inner works, be committed to our practices and keep reflecting and checking on ourselves. This is especially important if we want to continue to serve properly. Some of the amazing qualities that I see and learnt from great teachers are their humbleness and humanness aside all their gifts. They are very grounded. Also, we are not here to “SAVE” everyone. I prayed for myself and others who are embarking on this path to continue to work on ourselves, be committed to our practices and be true to our pure intentions. At the same time be human, play, laugh, have fun and enjoy! Much love |
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